Ramadhan n Me

Assalamualaikum wbt..

Usually, this time of the year, mak will balik rumah early...because she will have to wake up early to prepare for sahur. Then after dinner, we all will sit in front of tv, watching the 'penyimpan mohor besar raja2' announce that tomorrow is the start of Ramadhan...

Mak will give this 'pep talk' about how we all should try our level best this year's Ramadhan. As in, try not to waste the food, everyone will have to bangun sahur n should try they level best no to sleep after sahur~ which usually fails for most of us after few weeks of Ramadhan...

Then, adik will start the negotiation on what will he get if he 'puasa penuh'.Mak usually promise adik, duit raya as the reward if he puasa penuh, and all of us the elder ones, will told adik that we been puasa penuh so long as we remember, but we never got anything..n mak will balas " I got u guys baju raya every year, didn't I?" ---- haa, kan semua dah kene...zrrreeeet~hahaha

This is the moment that i miss most in my life..as we get older and since my sister and I started college, we seem to missed out on this 'pep talk' thingy..My family anticipate Ramadhan more than Hari Raya, because Mak she actually work more during Hari Raya n less in Ramadhan, i guess that's how the resort business work, i think~

I really hope this Ramadhan i can dedicate my time for me. I want to be able to do something for myself.

I want time for me...for what i should have done long time ago..
I owe myself and especially the loved ones around me too much...