Two Years is Twenty Four Months

Assalamualaikum W.B.T

Hey all...!!! (Greetings ala-ala Celebrity.LOL)

Its been more or less two years since my last entry to this almost forgotten blog.
Do I even have any reader? like seriously??..haha...
Thank you for those who's being reading & to those who still following....(---this one ayat ala-ala famous blogger!)

Two years is a very long time. So what happened?
Did I get kidnapped, did i lost my path in life....
Seriously...what happened???!! (----this one ayat ala-ala movie thriller! haha)

A lot of things happened.
I got married.
I got a lovely son, a daughter is on the way...
A loving husband...
A successful career...
And been travelling abroad a lot....

To sum up..a perfect life! :)

Ok, all the above is bogus..except the first line.

Yes, a lot of things happened.
No, I'm still Single & AVAILABLE.
InsyaAllah, hoping to be a Mother..One fine day..
InsyaAllah, hoping to be in love & to be loved..One fine day..
InsyaAllah, I'm enjoying my job right now...
Alhamdulillah, I got to travel abroad...one or two times...hehe

To sum up....Alhamdulillah, I am exactly where I need to be :) :)

Why is it that I start to write again??
For various reasons..which I know I will 'blab' one by one during many entries to come (InsyaAllah..hehe :p)

But the main reason is for SHARING.

I think I haven't been doing a lot sharing for the past two years. I haven't been very generous in sharing my views, my opinions and what I think about things for anyone out there.

And recently, due to some events that transpired, I see myself not sharing is a bad thing. Why?
Because a person opinion can make a different. Even if its just one person.

A person's opinion, that is shared, that being put forward, that being made known, will have different outcome.
Readers will like it, will share it, it will become an issue to be discussed and some brilliant writings & sharing, developed the ideologies that shape the world today.
& it could be the opposite way..
Readers will hate it, will share it, it will become an issue to be discussed and in some evil manipulative way, is the cause of chaos & wars that changes the world we have today.

ONE THING that have similar process but different outcome.

I believed that to be able to share, is a blessings. Is a sign that you are receiving more that what you're needed. And I know that I am, in some ways, are more Privileged than some other people out there.

So, I want to Share :)

My Home Sweet Kampung

I hope, I can Share a lot this year, and many years to come. InsyaAllah.

2013

Assalamualaikum w.b.t

It's been a long time...two years actually :)

~credits to PositiveOutlooks facebook page.

Listen....

Assalamualaikum w.b.t

Listen,
To the song here in my heart
A melody I start
But can't complete

Listen, to the sound from deep within
It's only beginning
To find release

Oh,
the time has come
for my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside and turned
Into your own
all cause you won't
Listen....

Listen,
I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home, in my own home
And I've tried and tried
To say whats on my mind
You should have known
Oh,
Now I'm done believin you
You don't know what I'm feelin
I'm more than what, you made of me
I followed the voice
you gave to me
But now I gotta find, my own..

You should have listened
There is someone here inside
Someone I'd thought had died
Sooo long ago

Ohh I'm free now and my dreams 'll be heard
They will not be pushed aside or turned
Into your own
All cause you won't
Listen...

I don't know where I belong
But i'll be movin on
If you don't....
If you won't....

Listen by Beyonce - Dreamgirls

Yes, sometimes people just need someone to just listen....
Instead of always giving 'i know how u feel', 'i went through this before' 'i think i know wat u shud do'.....etc etc
NO! just stop giving people suggestion on what to do, or preaching to them on how bad life can be...when all they need is for you to listen....
It'll be so much comforting, to have a friend to actually tell you that they are there, to just listen...
Because sometimes it'll meant so much more if u could just listen....

dear someone,
please just take me to this place, where I see no one but me..please :)

[credits : deep night blues by nilgunkara_deviantart]

Ramadhan n Me

Assalamualaikum wbt..

Usually, this time of the year, mak will balik rumah early...because she will have to wake up early to prepare for sahur. Then after dinner, we all will sit in front of tv, watching the 'penyimpan mohor besar raja2' announce that tomorrow is the start of Ramadhan...

Mak will give this 'pep talk' about how we all should try our level best this year's Ramadhan. As in, try not to waste the food, everyone will have to bangun sahur n should try they level best no to sleep after sahur~ which usually fails for most of us after few weeks of Ramadhan...

Then, adik will start the negotiation on what will he get if he 'puasa penuh'.Mak usually promise adik, duit raya as the reward if he puasa penuh, and all of us the elder ones, will told adik that we been puasa penuh so long as we remember, but we never got anything..n mak will balas " I got u guys baju raya every year, didn't I?" ---- haa, kan semua dah kene...zrrreeeet~hahaha

This is the moment that i miss most in my life..as we get older and since my sister and I started college, we seem to missed out on this 'pep talk' thingy..My family anticipate Ramadhan more than Hari Raya, because Mak she actually work more during Hari Raya n less in Ramadhan, i guess that's how the resort business work, i think~

I really hope this Ramadhan i can dedicate my time for me. I want to be able to do something for myself.

I want time for me...for what i should have done long time ago..
I owe myself and especially the loved ones around me too much...

Kadang - kadang, hanya sekadar dgn emoticon smiley dan senyuman ikhlas sang sahabat,
boleh mengusir segelap-gelap dan sehitam-hitam awan di hati saya,
juga mampu meredakan sekuat-kuat ribut dalam jiwa saya........

Subhanallah, sayangnya Allah kpd saya, kerana mengurniakan saya sahabat seperti antum semua :) terasa diri x layak didampingi insan-insan seperti antum....

Dengan kasih sayang ini, saya akan kuatkan jiwa, kerahkan tenaga, berani melangkah ke depan...kerana saya tahu saya tidak bersendirian...demi perjuangan kita bersama...




Thanks 4 always been there 4 me, n please do stand by me.........

....a beginning of a hellish nightmare.....

Hasbunallah wani'mal wakil, Hasbunallah wani'mal wakil, Hasbunallah wani'mal wakil....













Please do stand by me.

Segala puja dan puji itu hanya milikmu wahai Tuhan penentu segala takdir. Selawat dan salam buat Rasul junjungan petunjuk sepanjang zaman, Nabi Muhammad s.a.w dan ahli keluarga serta para sahabatnya yang umpama bintang-bintang bergemerlapan.

Ya Allah…

Dalam perjalanan kehidupan ini telah Engkau jadikan bagiku seorang teman. Sedangkan ia adalah diluar jangkaan dan sangkaan hambaMu ini. Aku tetapkan baginya satu peraturan yang hanya Allah yang akan menentukan segalanya.

Ya Allah…

Walau apa pun takdirMu keatasku, maka disaat ini aku tahu dia perlukan pertolongan. Oleh itu wahai Tuhan, aku dengan penuh rasa kehambaan yang penuh kehinaan memohon padaMu bagi pihaknya, kerana dia adalah sahabatku.


Ya Allah…

Ampunilah daku dan sahabatku dan masukkanlah kami kedalam rahmatMu dan Engkau adalah Tuhan yang maha penyayang.


Ya Allah…

Jangan Engkau tinggalkan untuknya suatu dosa melainkan telah Engkau ampunkan. Dan tiada suatu aibnya, melainkan telah Engkau tutupinya. Tiada suatu dukanya melainkan telah Engkau hilangkan daripadanya. Tiada suatu hutangnya melainkan telah Engkau bayarkannya. Tiada suatu kesakitan melainkan telah Engkau sembuhkannya. Tiada suatu hajatnya dari keperluan dunia dan akhiratnya yang telah Engkau redhai dan tepat untuknya melainkan telah Engkau tunaikan segalanya baginya wahai Tuhan yang Maha Penyayang.

Ya Allah…

Lindunglah sahabatku dari hilangnya nikmatMu dan berubahnya kesejahteraanMu dan mendadaknya seksaMu dan berbagai macam murkaMu.


Ya Allah…

Sungguhnya aku bermohon kepadaMu tabahkanlah dia dalam menghadapi segala urusan dan kekuatan dalam menerima petunjukMu.


Ya Allah…

Kurniakanlah kepadanya jiwa ketaqwaan dan sucikanlah. Engkaulah sebaik-baik yang mensucikannya.


Ya Allah…

Sungguhnya aku bermohon kepadaMu bagi pihaknya dengan sabaik-baik permintaan, sebaik-baik permohonannya, sebaik-baik kejayaannya dan sebaik-baik pahala baginya. Tetapkanlah untuknya, beratkanlah timbangan kebaikannya. Mantapkanlah imannya, tingkatkanlah darjatnya, terimalah solatnya dan ampunkanlah dosa-dosanya. Ya Allah, aku bermohon baginya kepadaMu tingkat yang tinggi di syurga. Ya Allah perkenankanlah permohonanku.


Ya Allah…

Sungguhnya Engkau mengetahui apa yang aku rahsiakan dan apa yang aku perlihatkan, maka ampunkanlah kealpaan dan kelalaiannya. Dan Engkau mengetahui segala hajatnya, maka kabulkanlah permohonannya. Ya Allah, aku bermohon baginya kepadaMu keimanan yang selalu mendampingi hatinya, dan keyakinan yang kuat sehingga dia mengerti bahawasanya tidak akan menimpa dirinya kecuali apa yang telah Engkau tentukan baginya dan bahawasanya apa sahaja yang telah menimpa dirinya bukanlah semata-mata yang meluputkannya. Dan apa sahaja yang telah meluputkannya bukanlah yang semata-mata menimpa dirinya.


Ya Allah…

Aku bermohon baginya kepadaMu iman yang dia buat cari kebenaran. Cahaya yang dia jadikan ikutan dan rezeki yang dirinya cukupkan. Ya Allah…jadikanlah dia cinta kepadaMu dengan hatinya seluruhnya dan rela kepadaMu dengan segala kemampuan dirinya seluruhnya. Ya Allah… jadikanlah cintanya seluruhnya hanya kepadaMu dan amal perbuatannya seluruhnya hanyalah untuk mencari keredhaanMu.


Ya Allah…

Apa sahaja yang Engkau jauhkan darinya dari hal-hal yang dia cintai, jadikanlah hal itu sebagai penguat untuknya mencintai apa yang Engkau cintai dan jadikanlah cintanya kepadaMu sebagaimana Engkau mencintai.


Ya Allah…

Cukuplah diriMu bagiku, tiada Tuhan selain Engkau. Hanya kepadaMu aku bertawakal. Dan Engkaulah Tuhan yang memiliki arasy yang agong.

Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin